A Heritage Unto the Lord

I put off opening my eyes and sitting up this morning.... knowing that the "morning sickness" was waiting to welcome me to a new day. While I stayed curled up in my nice warm bed, my mind still can hardly believe that we really are going to have another child in our home. This morning sickness stuff is a blessing in a sense- letting me know that my body is doing just what it was created to do for the little life being formed.

For You formed {controlled or possessed, held as a possession} my inward parts; You wove { covered, guarded, incubated or hid} me in my mother's womb. Psalm 139: 13

Maybe it's because Eddie and I just celebrated our 18th anniversary. But I remember so well when we were first married and I did not want children! What happened? Eddie started praying. One morning at the breakfast table he ask me one of his probing questions: if I thought we might be missing one of God's blessings for us by choosing not to have children. Nope! I thought I loved charts and file folders more than I could a kid! But then we agreed to pray about it. Our prayer became, "Do you want us to have children?"

I will never forget a weekend that we spent praying and fasting. By Monday morning, we both had heard the Holy Spirit speak to our hearts. It was simple. God ask, "What does MY word say about children?" Children are a heritage {a blessing or gift} of the Lord. "Do you want my blessing, or not?" It was only eight weeks later we learned that God was creating Isaac. And how could I love anyone more than I love that guy? I can't image life without him. To think I almost chose not to have children! My friend Ms. Susan told me not long ago that yes- man can prevent children. However, God is the Giver of Life. Even with all the wonderful scientific and medical discovers, life is a gift from our Creator!
During the next ten year- yep, ten years- we have continued to trust the Giver of Life. Isaac and I have wondered- How many arrows does it take to fill a quiver?

Happy is the man that hath his quiver full of them {children}:

they shall not be ashamed.... Psalm 27:5

Isaac longed to be a big brother- but we had all settled in our minds and hearts that for whatever reason, God knew better than we ... and maybe it was best that our family be a family of three. But Isaac is a wonderful brother to our sweet little gift: Jonathan. As a matter of fact, wonderful doesn't seem an ample description. I couldn't help but wonder how a 10 year old only child would handle suddenly sharing his entire world. "As for God, his way is perfect..." 2 Samuel 22:31

That's why just ten months- yep, ten months- into our journey, we continue to trust the Giver of Life. Every day, I hear negative remarks about having children that are close in age. I'm certain it is tiring and difficult. But my Father (who is the Giver of Life, by the way) loves me... enough that He sent His only Son to die in my place. He doesn't play dirty tricks on me or give me mean gifts. Every Word He has promised me is true... and I have found Him to be Faithful. So, I choose. I choose to trust the Giver of Life to once again be Faithful to this growing family.

Every Word He's Promised Is True

What I Thought Was Impossible I've Seen My God Do

He's Been Faithful
Faithful To Me
Looking Back His Love And Mercy I See

Though In My Heart I Have Questioned

Even Failed To Believe

He's Been Faithful, Faithful To Me
When My Heart Looked Away
The Many Times I Could Not Pray

Still My God Was Faithful To Me

The Days I Spent So Selfishly

Reaching Out For What Pleased Me

Even Then My God Was Faithful To Me

Every Time I Come Back To Him

He Is Waiting With Open Arms

And I See Once Again

He's Been Faithful, Faithful To Me

Looking Back His Love And Mercy I See

Though In My Heart I Have Questioned

Even Failed To Believe

Yet He's Been Faithful, Faithful To Me